我需要的平静

今天感到非常累。
好累、好累。
无比的疲惫。
好想好好的睡一觉，但众多的烦恼无法让我好好入睡。
说真的，被这些索碎的事情牵着走真的很难受，简直是生不如死。
有时想一了百了，从二十三楼跳下去，多痛快啊。

Oh! Don't worry! I won't go crazy and start defenestrating you and your belongings! I'm a kind natured human being!
I'm a total loss of words right now.
Sigh, i'm taking my lit test tomorrow, but I have not touched on it yet.
Looks like i'm doomed to fail.
Perhaps I should list down the things I need to do:
1. History Essay
2. English Comprehension
3. Geography Assignment
4. Literature Assignment

And what have I done?
Nothing! Woohoo!!! Yes! I ROCK MAN!

Yeah right, I'm in a holiday mood right now.
Haha. I can't stop looking forward to the next weekend.
I've been emo-ing today after listening to those songs over and over again.
Having been listening to english pop/rock songs for the past year, I think I can draw upon a conclusion alr!!
Chinese pop songs are far more emotional and heartbreaking as compared to english songs.
A pang of nostalgia hit me as I listened to a few touching chinese songs, namely 平常心, 我要快乐 and 接受, which were once sang by a project superstar 2 contestant, Carrie. Bittersweet memories of the past overwhelmed me with an avalanche of emotions - bitter because it's over, sweet because it happened. There’re so many memories to rifle through, so many which bring a tinge of sadness but a sweet smile to your lips, some that you can never forget...

Sigh! Stop emo-ing! I can't take it anymore! I shall look at life in a positive light and study now!
But before that, let's look at the lyrics of these songs. If there ain't any other better ways of expressing how i'm feeling right now, these lyrics will be the quintessence of my thoughts.
My feelings.
My heart.

张惠妹 - 我要快乐

又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的

张惠妹 - 平常心

街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得不想再拉扯
我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可

我知道了。
我需要的就是平静。
快乐。